Summertime Blues

Summer for me has FINALLY arrived- today was my last day of school, and after my 8th period check-in thismorning, i am free!!! i never really understood how much drama is associated with the end of the school, and not just for seniors. Sure, there's prom, but also friends leaving, choosing classes, and saying goodbye to another year gone. It really is a little ridiculous. It hasn't yet sunk in that im actually on summer holidays, but i am feeling a little relaxed to say the least. however, im just starting to realize what all of this means. All of my senior friends are gone, and i will never see them all in one place again, like I did at school. I am actually now the highest level i can be at highschool, and im leaving home next year to go to college. Im having a hard time coming to terms with all of this. besides, im only sixteen. That's not an exactly young age, but im feeling very young. I remember being in middle school and thinking "i cant wait until im older..when i'll be in highschool." Well now Im older, but it just doesnt feel quite right. It's almost as if my "official" childhood years are over, and im stepping into another pair of shoes, and a little bit later, putting on a graduation gown. and i can tell you... it's a bit scary. In two years, i'll no longer be with the people i am with now. I always love change- it's something I'm used to, and i like it. but this time it just doesnt feel right. But, i do have the whole summer to spend time with these people, so i'd better make it worth it.